Monday, January 23, 2012
It's going to be okay.
Listening to: Clair de Lune (harp version)
Drinking: Chocolate and caramel coffee
During the fast I was praying for direction. "Lord order my steps..." you know the whole drill. What I figured out was what I've heard all along but I've been running away from it honestly. During praise and worship we were singing "We Will Remember" and it came to me. We were given our talents to praise the Lord. All of our costuming, woodworking, and other amazing talents need to be given back to God. I feel like He placed on my heart, we are able to go to these conventions so that we can spread His word and share His peace. This terrifies me honestly... because honestly I've never witnessed to anyone. But it's my turn, it's our turn. I really feel like we're suppose to go to A-KON and share His love, share His promises at every convention. That is our only purpose at these things.. If we're their only chance at hearing His word and we're too scared to do it? Won't we be held accountable for it in the end? The only thing they can tell us is "No." But at least they heard it.
Pastor went on and preached about Paul and Philippians 1. Which totally confirmed everything. "For it has been granted to you on behalf on Christ not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for him, since you are going through the same struggle you saw I had, and now hear that I still have." Philippians 1:29-30 He was stripped of his clothes and beaten and thrown in jail for preaching God's love. Why can't we go to extreme lengths to touch people? That is our mission, that is why we've been placed where we are. There's someone waiting for us.
I can only hear Vic's words ringing through my head.... I've also read on "Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others." Philippians 2:4. Like Vic said Jesus would have been going around talking to EVERYONE and telling them how awesome they look. If there's a girl wearing a bikini who are we to judge her on her looks? What if she really needs someone to lean on? Someone to tell her everything is going to be okay? What if we're the only ones to do so? This is our mission field. And we need to rise to the occasion, because we've been called. He has placed a calling on our lives that we cannot deny.
Phew, I'm in tears now... sorry. I'm not Bible smart I'll tell you that honestly. I don't know how to pray aloud and I'm definitely the smartest... but we have time to get ready. I want to find a Bible study about witnessing and I think we should have prayer meetings. God has done so much for my family, He has healed Ariana to no end. She was on the brink of death and blindness, the doctors never thought she would do anything but yet she has dumbfounded them all. It's my turn to return the blessings to others. I hope we're on the same page.
Yesterday the fast was over! When we give something up for the Lord he will bless us. I feel truly blessed. After church we went to Hunan Chinese Garden! YUUUUM! Haha, and I had ice cream. And it was like when I got home I had so much energy and I cleaned the whole house, lol. And I got some homework done.. and then my Dad cooked some lasagna for me. Yesterday was an awesome day.
I'm not going to start cosplay work right now, only because I am seriously in a bill jumble. I've gotta finish paying for books and start a payment on my school bill. Plus I want to loose a couple of poundage and look more fit/healthy. I did splurge yesterday, but I've pulled it in today. So far I had oatmeal with a little bit of butter, two teaspoons of sugar, and silk milk. Then my coffee. I have Mondays off, so I'm gonna do a bit of working out, maybe go running.
I'm just so excited. God is moving in our lives, let's open our hearts to Him.