Thursday, June 30, 2011


Meghan, his last name is Zack Fair. It came to me the other day and I was like "OH yeah!" Haha, it's true, the contrast that is. Zack Fair and Cloud Strife. Zack is the one who died and Cloud carries that weight. Ohhhhh the symbolism.

I went and bought fabric for Sophie today. I'm so excited.
But you wanna know what I'm more excited for...? FIREWORKS. Though I don't think we'll be able to set them off at the house this year, there's a burn ban in effect. Fines start at $500! Isn't that crazy? And you could get up to a year in jail for it too.. I think I'll buy some fireworks and save them for later. Oh explosives. Speaking of 4th of July, I just want to say that I'm very thankful for the troops that have given their time and lives to keep our country save and free. Without people who willingly give their service, where would we be? What kind of country would we be? The men and women who have given their lives, we owe so much to them. I thank God for these amazing people who have died and fought to keep American soil free and "One Nation Under God."

I've had a wonderful week. A bit of stress, but that's usual. Right now I am so peaceful and just, ah. Some peppermint tea would probably be the icing on the cake. :D I'm so excited for TnT too! It's right around the corner. It's our last one for a while too... come slowly. lol

Cosplay Update:
Azula - Add the last detail to armor/tabard, hair thing, boot detail.
Videl - See if boots need some love and wash shirt.
Sophie - Everything, but I'm striving to get it done this weekend.

My wig is suppose to come in next Friday July 8th! So, I'm hoping so! lol I can't wait to get it.. I can't wait till Meghan gets her Katara one, haha. Well even though I don't have to be at work till 10, I'm gonna get to bed early. I miss yous guys faces, very much. It's been way too long since we've hung out or really have got to see each other... other than the passing 15 minute chitchats. :(
I love you!

Sunday, June 26, 2011


"You'll stay with me until the end, right?"
"No... always. I'll stay with you always."

I'm almost done with Final Fantasy X. I'm actually almost back to where I was years ago before my memory card was taken by one of my cousins. Pushing that all into the past, I am so excited. I could probably beat the game tomorrow.. but I'm going to make it last as long as possible. It's going to be so sad, I already know how it ends, but still. I am going to cry. I cried when Aerith died. lol So I think next I'm going to play FFVII. I didn't get very far last time I played it many moons ago, but I really wanna be able to say I did and have.

*Meghan: I think we have all the KH series games, but I do wanna come up there for Dynasty Warriors 4 or Soul Caliber! That sale thing is this weekend right? Totally going. :D

*Cheryl: After X, I plan on playing VII and going up. So I'll eventually get to those! I'm so excited, I'll finally be able to know what Garnet's real story is. >.<

I bought a dress pattern and some bloomer patterns for Sophie. Thought there will have to be some alterations in the dress, you know that weird seam line across the chest? Yep. And I really wanted to make the dress fuller / more flow-y. Does that make sense? lol. But I have no idea how to do that. I'm going to need some serious help.. especially picking out fabric for all of this. I need to finish Azula and I'm going to hand wash my Videl shirt. It has a stain at the bottom and I have to get it out! lol

With that aside, today at church God was really speaking to me. I've been living for me, myself, and I so much lately that I haven't really seen the big picture. The sermon was really for me and I felt the Holy Spirit move. I need to focus more on ministering to others, even if that's just loving on someone or lending them money. Which with cosplay, I've been kinda stingy with money lately. But you know with God worldly things don't matter. He's the ultimate gift and I've been stingy with that too. I'm not sharing the best gift anyone could have, an eternity with the Lord. After church I've kinda been on fire and I really needed it. Not that I wasn't a Christian before, but I was totally slipping away. I don't know much scripture, but I would like to start reading the Bible. Maybe get a Bible Study? If you guys know any good ones, that would be super dooper.

We're placed in situations for a reason, perhaps there's someone there that needs to be touched by the hand of God and your the one who has to make that happen. I want to be a vessel for Him.

So here are some really good cosplays of FFX characters, some sad but awesome quotes, and just good plain Final Fantasy sweetneess. Love you guys and I miss your faces! If you aren't doing anything for 4th of July (cuz I'm not) we totally need to have a get together. You should text me RIGHT NOW while you're reading this, and let me know. Let's scheme. 

Saturday, June 25, 2011

"Look around."

I stayed up real late last night so I could put a dent in Final Fantasy X. Long story short, I was to the end of the game years and  years ago... and we were visiting family and my cousin took our memory card. I'm still kinda mad at him haha, but I'm getting there again. And this time I'm taking more time to train and what not. So when I beat FFX I'll need a new game to play and I guess it might be KH, but I'm not sure.

I went and saw Cars 2 yesterday after I got off work early yesterday. It was SUPER CUTE! And one of the cars was voiced by the gal who voiced Sophie from Howl's Moving Castle! But I was probably the only one who knew that. So if you wanted to see it I saw go see it. Very cute and very worth it. Now I wanna go see Kung Fu Panda 2, everyone has been telling me that one is really good.

I went to Goodwill real quick and found another pretty "Chinese dress." And tons of awesome chopsticks! I bought my wig and got the faster shipping, it was like $10 more.. so hopefully it comes in. And processes really fast because I calculated the days and it could come in the day before TnT. O.O No bueno.

Oh Saturday, thank you for being lazy and not important. Lord thank you for giving me peace of mind yesterday when I needed. And friends, thank you for listening to my ranting.

P.S. My sister's pregnant...again... don't tell anyone... I hope it's a girl! >.<

 I think my dream had something to do with lolita.. but I can't really remember it. 

 Grace Kelly. I remember seeing this picture as a little girl in a book I had. She was so pretty and I wanted to be just like her. Uhhh, I love her dress.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

"Among the fields of gold."

I don't ship Cloud and Aerith, but I like this song and this video. Haha. You know when I think about it Final Fantasy VII was my first FF game to really experience. Aerith Gainsborough was my first favorite Final Fantasy gal. XD I would like to do a version of her in the future.

Thanks guys, your encouragement means a lot. Your comments mean a lot. Today I had a way much better day. No stress at all and I even had a DHS visit. I was totally chill. Me and a couple of the older kiddos even made up a new word, "awespic." It's awesome and epic put together. We were watching ATLA for like two hours while the others were on a field trip and we'd say "awespic" whenever something awesome happened in the show lol.

Yeah I got off early, here I am sitting in my room, I almost started to fold my clothes than was like nahhhhhh. Haha! ROFL. I'm really in the mood to play FFX right now.. but I don't know where it is. I might go looking for it. Hmph. I also need to enroll into more classes. I also need to start looking for stuff for my Sophie cosplay. I hope my wig comes in in time. That would totally not be cool. D':

So if I continue on with this blog I'll start to just ramble and not make much sense. Love you guys, you are such amazing friends and I don't know where I would be without your constant (stubborn) words of encouragement, love, wisdom, caring-ness, and just awesome. :D

Sorry I just had so many pictures today and I couldn't narrow them down! I love them all! >.<

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

"We can make forever to feel this way."

I am about to rant, so if you don't want to hear anyone complain about their day, than skip right on to the photos.

Tired. I am tired of working at the daycare. It's bogus. Most of us feel this way too. It's not fun anymore, the kids treat us like dirt and pretty much get a slap on the wrist for it and sent on their way, with these different inspectors coming it's like we're being corrected and what not. I'm kept over when we close and don't see anything from it. The kids are ungrateful. I always ALWAYS have to be on my feet. I don't even think I used the restroom today. I'm sorry for having a pity party, I really am, but I'm almost to the point where I'm going to burst. Either with tears or anger, kind of like Azula when she's chained down. That's exactly how I feel right now, arms chained down and there's nothing I can do about it. Stressed.

And when you're stressed with one thing you start feeling depressed about the other things that are in the back of your head. Like the fact that I'm 21 and I have nothing to show for myself. I feel like a loser, I still live with my parents, don't have a degree, don't have a good job, and yeah. I mean I know a lot of people I graduated with are already graduated from college, off into their careers, and traveling the world.

Weight is always a constant issue on my mind. But I've been swimming laps, sit ups, and watching what I eat lately. But with this stress it has kinda made me turn to food for comfort without me realizing it sometimes. I think I need to start jogging or walking or running, something to that effect.

TnT so close but so far away. I'm ready for another trip away from reality. 3 weeks and 3 days. Oh man. I'm suppose to get off work early tomorrow, I hope it still stands true. I really want to come home and spend some time with my family.... like take a nap with the kids! Hahaha! We just got inside from swimming, however it didn't start out that we were gonna swim. I got the urge and while still in my jean shorts and shirt I jumped in. The kids followed suit. It was loads of fun and I think it wore them out. The firework stand opened up yesterday O.O looks like I know what I'm gonna do sooner or later. Fireworks are so fun, pretty, and magical.

I keep on having weird dreams about having kids or being pregnant or not having a good relationship with the "baby daddy" / "husband" it's kind of freaking me out. But honestly I'm going to give credit to working at the daycare all day. That's probably what's doing it. XP

This is my bed right now, yes you may make fun of me or think of me as a slob, whatever. I sleep on the left side and my clothes lay on the right side. I am way too lazy to fold them or hang them up. Like I was saying to Cheryl I have to be in the right mood to fold, like a folding mood. Though I think if my mom were to see this she might tell me to do it or get mad. Thank goodness no one really comes into my room.

A couple of things I have in common with Azula: I torture animals. Not turtleducks, but ants. I like to stick gum down their tunnels, XD haha. Then the next day I check it out to see if they successfully dug their tunnel back. And I'm not to smooth around guys, "Cause it's sharp." Yeah, -face palm- I'm not smooth around guys, that's like my line. Geeez.