Saturday, December 31, 2011

Hay hay hay.

Mwhaha we're watching the Adventure Time top 12 episode New Year's marathon. :D Hours and hours of Finn and Jake goodnessssesssss.

I've been thinking about cosplay lately, and who I might wanna do this coming cosplay season. But seriously, all the cosplay I wanna do is pretty hard, like detail wise and what not. So here's a possible list:
1. Sailor Moon
2. Princess Serenity (for ball? maybe)
3. Yuna
4. Luka Megurine
5. June
6. Nurse Joy
7. Princess Bubblegum

I'm excited about the Daniel Fast. I want to get a Bible study to do during it, or maybe two. I also want to find a Daniel Fast guide book. I have a couple things I'm going to pray for also like Ariana's eye. She's going to have surgery on the 17th and we're hoping that it'll save her eye. She could loose her eye, like her brain will eventually shut off to it and it'll die. So we're trying to prevent that. Another thing is Rhiannon and her baby. Just that they stay healthy and that she doesn't get depressed and overwhelmed. God and do it.

I had an Azula moment XD I asked to take my mom's diet coke for work and I told her I'd replace it. So I went to Williams after work and bought like a six pack of diet coke and that's it. Well I'm checking out and you know how they have those guys who help you out to your car? First of all this guy was like a kid, super younger than me. I'm flattered none the less. But he was like "Do you need help? Is it too heavy for you. I can help you to your car." I just kinda look at him, "Heh, right. I'm pretty sure I can do it." ROFL, I think his face was something like this O.O I didn't mean for it to come off rude, but... I don't know. I'm just weird and awkward about all that stuff. lol

Thursday, December 29, 2011

"So I'll tell myself that I'll be strong."

Stop pushing me. Stop telling me "he's cute" or "talk to this guy". Stop telling guys to contact me. Stop filling my head of things that won't come true. I do not want these things. I don't want them to come true. Please.

2012 is my year. I'm focusing on me. I'm going to loose weight the healthy way. I'm going to focus on God. I'm going to love my family and friends deeper.

I've been reading the Sailor Moon manga, I love it. The story is different from the anime and uhh it's so intense. I love Usagi in it, her character isn't all that different but it is. And the art work! So amazing. lol

Sunday, December 25, 2011

It is well.

We had an awesome candlelight service this morning. I actually don't ever remember going to one or if our church has had one. But I loved it. We lit our candles and he said "What if you're the only Bible someone is ever going to read? What if you're the only "Jesus" a person is going to know? Let your light shine and spread it to others." It really hit me. I need to be a better beacon of God's word but I also need to personally get a closer relationship with God and work on some things that I've been struggling with. I need to give it all to Him. All my worries, my sorrows, my stresses. I need to give it to Him because He knows way more and can do things beyond my control.

Christmas was fun. I really loved Christmas this year! I know it's not all about the gifts, but I gotta say I got some goods. Haha, my mom bought me up the whole collection of "Be Enchanted" from Bath and Body works! I'm set for a couple of months :D She got me the Adele cd, a PC game, a nifty travel bag, a super awesome purse, an Adventure Time and Sailor Moon shirt, Paris Hilton perfume, crackle nail polish,  and she also bought me the dress I wore for Christmas service/pictures.

I'm so excited about the Daniel fast! I'm glad so many people (you guys) are going to participate! It'll be hard but together I know we can do it. Like a support group! >.<

Well Merry Christmas, I love you guys! Let your day be filled with food, laughter, family, and the presence of Jesus. Lets give Him praise :3

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Off I go, again.

They let me off at 5:20 at the daycare, but I just have to go right to Michelle's house to watch her baby, then back to work the next day. Not complaining, but I'm just tired and sore. I work all day, I go work at my nanny job at night, and back to the daycare. Some days I don't even go home or see my family for days on end.

When I think things might look up and work, it just doesn't. I was talking to that guy but it's probably been a week or two since I've last heard from him. I know it probably wasn't meant to be but... I guess it just takes a toll on my self esteem. Lately I just feel just, so lame and that I'm just existing right now. I really want to invest into a treadmil, because right now, I just hate myself. Sorry for being so emo. I think kids just really drain you, emotionally and physically.

I need to finish Christmas shopping XP I don't want to though, people are crazy.

I finally saw Avatar (the blue one) and it was a pretty good movie.

Monday, December 19, 2011

Its been one week..

since school has been out for me! But I feel like I've been much busier. XD
Did you guys start singing that Barenaked Ladies song? "It's been one week since she's looked at me..." ROFL cause it's stuck in my head now.

So *drumroll* I made an 86.6666667 (86) in my Physiology class! Super stoked about that, for sure. I studied so hard for that stupid final.. out of about 35-40ish people in the class, 9 people made a B or above, I was one of those 9 hardcore people! >.<

So this week consists of working at the daycare, working for Michelle, and Christmas. I don't know bout you gals, but we should watch more movies this Friday! That would be lots of fun... if everyone is off and what not. I still need to finish shopping for my family, then after Christmas finish shopping for all y'all.

Hopefully I can catch up on some sleep, lol.

It's almost Christmas :3

Saturday, December 10, 2011

"She holds beauty in her eyes."

It is only a tiny rosebud
a flower of God's design;
But I cannot unfold the petals
With these clumsy hands of mine.

The secret of unfolding flowers
is not known to such as I
The flower God opens so sweetly
In my hands would fade and die.

If I cannot unfold a rosebud
This flower of God's design,
Then how can I think I have wisdom
To unfold this life of mine?

So I'll trust in Him for His leading
each moment of every day,
And I'll look to Him for His guidance
Each step of the pilgrim way.

For the pathway that lies before me
My Heavenly Father knows
I'll trust Him to unfold the moments
Just as He unfolds the rose.
     ---Author Unknown  
On Monday! That's right my semester ends on Monday! :D I'm so excited and I really just wanna say I totally most definitely want to hang out with you guys a lot of this break. I miss all of you, it has been too lonely. I hate only having the internet/texting/phone being the only way of communication. I wanna see your faces and frequently!

Semester exams, buh. I won't complain too much because well, they just stink. They really do. But I'm striving to make an awesome grade I need to and I will. *gameface*

I have an idea what I'm gonna get everyone for Christmas: My dad wants some screwdrivers, Rhiannon wants makeup, Brant I usually just get him a shirt but I'm thinking about a game or something, and Mom I traditionally get her fuzzy pjs (she loves them) but I'm going to try to find her perfume she wears and get her some Yankee Candles (loves those too). Now as to you guys, I know what I'm getting y'all.. I just don't know what to get for the guys! Why are guys so hard to shop for?

Before anyone freaks out and gets all crazy. I decided to be a nice person and I've started talking with that guy (the one I've been mentioning) on facebook. It's kinda in-personal but whatever. And it really hasn't gone anywhere, he doesn't get on facebook much and when he does it's through his phone (I don't think he has a computer XD). He seems pretty nice and he goes to church. I mean it just feels like meeting someone over the internet and talking to them, you know? Ehhh, my mother is crazy sometimes. lol

I can't wait till it snows so I can get lost in a wintery wonderland. I love getting lost in the woods out back, the sky gray and trees loaded to the ground with snow. The air cold and crisp and the only noise is the sound of your snow pants swishing as you walk through the brush. I love laying down in the creek beds and watching snow fall. Or going out to our "waterfall" and look at the icicles forming. It's truly an adventure.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Ore ja dame ka?

Am I not good enough? Buhh, one of the saddest moments (in my opinion) of Sailor Moon! I cry every time! That's kind of how I've been feeling.. just because all of this boy stuff that has been stirring around. I mostly avoid these things (guys) because I am very insecure.

It might just be one of those days (or the couple of pounds I've put on) but I just feel so balloon-ish. I always compare myself to others... I really need to get back to eating healthy and exercising. School always brings the worse in me, especially studying. It's like I have to have chips and soda while studying. I'm glad school is almost out, I really want to continue becoming stronger, fitter, and just healthier. I've promised myself that if I can slim down a little more, that I'll totally splurge on this $200 40's styled red polka doted swim suit! Something sorta like this one:

Super cute! >.<

Monday is the last day of school for me! I'm so excited but also I'm not ready, I need to study way way more. I have two huge reviews to go through and some extra credit (4 points XP) to get done. Hey, 4 points could make or break you. lol, I do wish it was a bit more though.

I can't wait till it actually snows, or after the first freeze, I love getting lost in the woods behind us. Laying down in the dry creek bed and watching the snow fall from the trees. The smell of pine and the peace of the quietness, it's so beautiful. Then coming into the house to a warm fireplace. I can spend hours outside in the snow.

I'm sorry I've been so winy and blah, I'm just having one of those moments.

Yesterday was the 70th anniversary of Pearl Harbor and today 70 years ago FDR declared war on Japan. I love the 40's era even though it was stained with death. People seemed so close together, families had "victory gardens" to save items for the soldiers at war. And men were more eager to protect their country then too. I love 40's big band music, Glenn Miller is definitely one of my favorite composers/instrumentalists/artists. So I did my hair and makeup and I'm dressed to remember.

So I was talking to P about this guy that my mom is trying to get me hooked up with. What she said almost made me cry. "Any guy would be lucky to have you. Just be yourself and if he doesn't like that then it's his loss. You are amazing and I'm so blessed to have you." My sister told me something to that same effect... so I've started talking to him on facebook, so I suppose we'll see what happens.