Sunday, February 24, 2013

"Isn't it wonderful?"

This is from the end of the game /sobs
It is so beautiful...

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Standing before a decadent dessert table piled high like a tempting tower was a daunting task. I was glowing with the first flush of success with my healthy eating plan, but now I found myself at the blow-out wedding of the season. A mere wedding cake was not enough panache for this soiree. Instead, a full buffet of chocolate truffles accompanied the groom’s cake. It was beautiful. And I wanted one of each flavor!

Previously, when I faced the calorie-overload opportunities so common in our culture, I felt overwhelmed and defeated. The tower of truffles seemed like a tower of impossibility. But this time my perspective was different. I had experienced a shift and tasted a new style of hope.

The particular healthy-eating plan that I had chosen was full of wisdom about the realities of food’s interaction with my body. In addition, I had put some healthy boundaries in place, surrounded myself with a like-minded friend, and replaced old lies in my mind with new truths.

This new foundation began to slowly build, one day at a time. Healthy choices piled on top of each other day after day.

Then, one day I woke up for the first time feeling incredibly empowered. I still did the typical routine with the scale–no clothes and no ponytail holder. My body was slowly changing because I had lost some weight. But the most thrilling feeling was knowing that my heart was changing.

Hope over despair tasted better than any food I’d ever given up. I had sought God’s perspective using prayer, boundaries, and His fulfillment as my source. I realized nothing was worth compromising the path of victory I was on — not even the tower of truffles!

I paved my victory path by imagining every good choice I made was like settling another brick into place: bricks of prayer, wise choices, closeness to God, closeness to others, confidence, energy, and focus.

Each and every time I conquered a temptation by making a healthy choice, I became stronger and stronger. And, brick by brick, prayer by prayer, good choice by good choice, my hope soared. I’m making positive physical changes, but even more importantly, I’m making wise spiritual changes. As Proverbs 24:14 reminds me, walking in spiritual wisdom secures my hope that this healthy journey will not end in defeat:

Know also that wisdom is sweet to your soul; if you find it, there is a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off.

As you face similar temptations, I can’t promise that there won’t be any more tears. There will be. And I can’t promise that sweets will no longer appeal to you. They may. I can’t even promise that the number on the scale will magically drop as quickly as you wish. It probably won’t. But gaining spiritual wisdom along the way will set your feet on a sure path of victory. Press on, my friend!

"So shall the knowledge of wisdom be unto thy soul: when thou hast found it, then there shall be a reward, and thy expectation shall not be cut off." -Proverbs 24:14

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So I've thought about doing something nice for myself every ten pounds I loose, like an incentive kind of thing! So here's my list:

Current 200lbs :////

190lbs - Crest Teeth Whitening Kit (I've always wanted one!)
180lbs - Rilakkuma Kigurumi
170lbs - New bathingsuit (I really want a cute polka dot one)
160lbs - Dresses from D:
150lbs - Total new wardrobe.

I'm not buying any more new clothes! :))

I need to put more faith into God and not limit Him. I need to include Him in ALL that I do, glorify Him with ALL that I do.


How is everyone? I'm great, I had a pretty good day today. I went with Michelle and Greyson to a Gymboree class! That was fun, it was like a glorified daycare. But all the parents are there with their kids and it's like a tiny gym class for little kids. They get to slide and throw balls!

Today it was 48 degrees and we thought that was heaven! How funny.. it's usually been in the 30's and raining, so hey, I'll take it. It's suppose to be beautiful like that tomorrow too, so I'll have to go outside!!!

Below there's a picture of a plus size model in a bra and underwear... I honestly think she's of normal size and if there were more campaign adds or if we saw her on the runway or in Victoria's Secret, our view of ourselves and others would be so much different. That girl is so beautiful! 

Cosplay stuffffffffffff -

- Fix Yuna skirt.
- Fix Yuna white top.
- Possibly make a new Yuna black bra.
- Applejack bag <3
- Applejack belt buckle.
- Starfire dress.
- Starfire armor (gauntlets, arm piece, neck piece.)
- Starfire resin.
- Starfire boot covers DDDDD:

A lot and I still need to get a heat gun... Just have three more weeks. Gotta get my butt in gear!!

Miss you all! See you all soon!! :)))))

Friday, February 22, 2013

We'll hold onto You always.

This video. It made me cry.
I love how put use popular footage and put a Christian message in it.. it's really a clever way to get the message out there.
I also pictured everyone as their characters lol XD

Sorry I haven't blogged in so long! Last time I blogged was before I came and visited so...

I had so much fun at the Valentine's Day party/fancy dinner. I am so glad I got to see all of you guys. It was really nice to be around all of you and just have fun, you know?

I went to Katsucon, you guys already know, and it was pretty awesome. I wish I could have gone to some panels, but I'm not complaining! Seeing so many great cosplayers and artists was really awesome. I'm glad to have been able to get the experience. The convention itself was HUUUUGE!! I don't even know what to compare it to.. it makes A-KON look like Izumicon.. like seriously. Child's play. Haha.

I've been so unmotivated to start working on Nakakon stuff.. I'm just like, ehhhh. I mean I'm totally ready for Naka and to see my friends and chill with them all weekend. I just don't really feel motivated to cosplay. Which leads me to this...

I'm just really depressed and upset with myself. Weight/goal wise. I don't want to complain or just dote on it or get myself back into a bad mood.. so this topic leads me to this:

I've let the devil get the better of my thinking...
"if you do it just once" "if you only have a little" "it feels good"

I haven't been so on fire like I was.. God is the only one who can help me. Only with Him is anything possible. I need to lean to Him instead of worldly pleasure. I need Him to be my rock.

Yes, partly I want to loose weight to "look good" or whatever.. but lately I can't sleep very well and that has to do with being overweight. I feel sluggish, tired all the time as well.

I have gained 27 lbs while being here in Maryland.

I need to learn to say "no" to myself, not give in to pressures, and lean on God for strength.

Please pray for me :)

Yes sweets and sodas and all that stuff might taste temporarily good, but what God has promised for me is far better. I'm giving up these worldly things, they have enslaved me for too long, and I'm giving all my praise to God. I'm going to workout and praise God. I'm going to drink water and praise God. I'm going to eat right (clean) and praise God.