Saturday, April 30, 2011

"Come with me where you'll never, never have to worry about grown up things again."

I got an old Peter Pan framed poster from the Surrey Hills garage sale! And some cool Aladdin-ish slippers! And an old Snow White framed poster. lol, Good spoils.

I'm stressed. I need to take a deep breath. This coming week is going to be nothing but tests and playing catch up. Three tests: Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. A project due Tuesday. Caelynn's birthday is next Saturday then it's Mother's Day. THEN it's finals week. School, hurry up and pass by.

That and I guess I'm just kinda stressed about AKON. Not actually about going, but just learning my music, the schedule, hotel, what not. I'm afraid that I won't be good at playing it.. but I can't really practice it till after school is over and then I have cosplay I really really really really need to work on and I'm just like, geeez I have no idea where to start. I'm thinking I'm going to take a trip to the fabric store May 14ish? Cheryl wanna go to get your Ty Lee stuff? Of course we'll need you Meghan. We're all coloring coordinating our Fire Nation outfits, right?

I think after school is over I won't be so moody/bossy/annoying/complainant.

And I also got sunburned today while walking around Surrey Hills, no bueno.

Well I'ma get back to learning about diseases.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

It kills me....

"If only it were so simple,
to cruise through life smelling roses;
but the obstacles blacken the countryside,
and we unwittingly crush them beneath our boots.

Dreams sustain us through the madness;
goals give a finish line to our race.
Yet they change with every turn, around every wall,
and remain elusive throughout the quest.

Mistakes are made, and regrets are our luggage;
we will drag them with us to slow us down.
The victories are flashes of light, sudden and unlasting, which allow us
to glimpse the road ahead before darkness descends.

Love is bitter, yet it is the bread that keeps us.
Over and over it fills us up, only to starve us.
The people whom we love shape our destinies and our strengths,
yet leave us cold and alone in the darkness.

There are others trying to race to the end;
occasionally, we bump into one or two.
The bonds we form help us down the path less lonely
but eventually, we lose each other in the darkness.

Alone is not a bad way to be;
it clears your head and focuses you on the journey.
Cherish the short intervals during the quest you have with others,
but be prepared to walk alone in the darkness."

JUST KIDDDING! Mwhaha. I do like the poem though, it was written pretty well. But I don't feel like that at all. Um Mrs. Author, I'd have to agree. I love surrounding myself with the people I care about and I know we're all walking down the straight and narrow path to our wonderfully awesome Creator. And Mrs. Author if I could just meet you, I would give you a great big hug and tell you that you're not alone, there is someone who loves you so much, and I would be your friend too.

I'm am so nerdy. I hope you enjoy the music as much as I do! >.<
I just wanted to get your attention and I think it worked.
Final Fantasy VII babehhhhy! Victory dance!

My weekend as follows:
- Babysit Frankie Jo Friday! Extra cash, yes ma'am.
- Study, study, study.
- Write paper over my bacteria(s).
- Online homework.
- Study.
- Do laundry.
- Sweep / Mop room.
- Exercise / Stretch / Work on handstands.
- Catch some of the Royal Wedding! Yay Princesses! Fairytale's do exist! 
- Rejoice in the Lord!

Love you guys!
I had to make an emo title and put an emo picture up so that you'd come here fast! lol
Please don't be mad at me.

Bwhahah, made you look

 Meghan: This is Hungary. 

Meghan: The one to the very far left is Hungary! lol

Tuesday, April 26, 2011


I'm going to have to say goodbye to blogger for at least two weeks, so I apologize ahead of time if you do not hear from me for a while, here. You'll probably see my absence from facebook as well. Next week, which will be my week before finals week, is going to be rough. It's going to be harder and more demanding than finals week... ohhh professors. Yep, three more weeks of school for me. XP (I guess I don't really have to count finals week, you don't do much)

I got my contacts, but wasn't really that pleased with them, though I'll probably just wear them around! Haha. I need to find some better blue ones... for Sailor Moon and Videl. I really wannnnna cosplay someone from Hetalia now, I really like Liechtenstein, she's pretty.

I'm so happy that May is next month, no school! And birthdays! And cosplay work days all the time! And anime parties. And freedom! Summer, it's gonna be great.

So if I don't see you or talk to you in a while, it's not because I don't love you, it's because I'm studying/doing homework/ pulling out my hair/ or hallucinating from lack of sleep. I am determined to bring my grade up to a B, I pulled it up a couple of points to a 75! YEAH! I'm so pumped. SCHOOOOOOOOL.

(it's almost over)

And yes Cheryl, when we get an apartment, we'll be crazy. And just have fun. Work all day and come home and just go nuts! Haha! Man.

                                             Liechtenstein from Hetalia

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Who do you think you are?

"Running around leaving scars. Collecting your jar of hearts, and tearing love apart. You're gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul. So don't come back for me, who do you think you are?"

Random Fact about me: I love lilies, especially Easter lilie :3

Because I thought a comment would be too long, ha ha.

Meghan: Yeah, I've tried to call them out on things before, doesn't really work. That makes them even more mad. I just try to suck it up, take it, and make sure I do my chores. I mean, they don't say it to me a lot. I'm generally a good kid and don't get into trouble, but when I do, they pull out that as a weapon. It just sucks really bad and puts me in a bad mood...

I can give things up cold turkey and not even want them. But if I just let myself have one piece of candy here I won't be able to stop myself. It's like when a shark smells blood or however that analogy goes. Mmmm yes, I love strawberries. And apples, and bananas, and blackberries, and raspberries, pretty much all fruit! I've stalked up on that most def. I really shouldn't even be drinking soda because caffeine gives me migraines, so I've been doing those Clear America, the sparkling water stuff? Mmmm, pineapple coconut is my favvvvvv.

I know, I have a huge image/appearance issue. It's been worse than ever, the past couple of years... but I've come a long way. After high school I gained probably about 40/50 pounds. I was miserable and depressed. I weighed 210 pounds and right now I can say that I weigh 175 pounds. That's 35, just in case you didn't feel like doing the math. Don't get me wrong, I am so happy. This is the most happiest I've ever been in my life, not because of my weight loss, but also because of the wonderful people I have in my life. My weight was becoming a problem, I had horrible blood circulation and my limbs would go to sleep and what not, I'd get short to breath easily, and just felt tired all the time. I'd tell myself, when I'm super skinny everyone will want to hang with me, guys will love me, and life will be better.

I know none of that is true, I was just fooling myself. But now, I'm really doing it for me. I just want to be healthy. I mean sure, if I was to get smaller I'd be so happy to fit in the latest designer what not, but I want to be fit. For my future husband and children and what not. I want to loose more weight, but for me. So I can be physically fit.

And since I've been doing this little "diet and exercise" for A-Kon (and all the other conventions) I just feel better about myself. I wake up in the morning and just feel better about myself. I'm actively doing something about it and getting results.

I can't wait til the summer, next week, it's May >.<
P.S. People didn't recoginze me at church today with my wig on XP lol

Just comparing my face, a now and then kindofathing. O.O lol

 I have awesome pigments in my eyes! YEAH! My Optometrist told me so.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

I am the hero!

I had some candy.
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I already feel bad and I don't wanna eat 12 donuts. Please forgive me Cheryl! I'm gonna work out lots tonight before I go to bed. Just lots. And lots tomorrow. Blahhhh.

Okay okay okay. I don't know if this ever happens to you, but when my parents are upset with me they always you the "you could move out" card. And it really hurts my feelings... they've been doing that a lot lately, like I'll say "Geeez, Ambri's so annoying" "Well, no one said you had to live here." It kind of makes me feel like they want me out. You don't know how much I want to be out. But I have no where to go, I cannot support myself, and I'm still in school and have a long way till graduating. I know they might be stressed out or whatever, but still. I hate it so much.

I'm kinda just bummed today. I wanna go get some manga.

I did, however, get a new Easter outfit! I love it. It's so pretty and elegant. It makes me feel classy! And I'm also going to wear my wig to church because I hate my hair and it makes me feel even prettier! lol XD