Tuesday, March 29, 2011

"Put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls."

School school school. At least we only have 7 more weeks left. I can't wait till it's over. Not that I'm not having fun, because it's really interesting. It's just that this summer is going to be amazing.

Not much has happened. I've just been kinda down about my weight lately and just feel not very pretty. Grunge-y I guess. And it's sad... when I'm in a bad mood / depressed I always find myself reading the Twilight series. I guess I can just feed off of it emotionally... since it is an emotional roller coaster. haha.

Well I need to get back to studying, gotta test tomorrow.


And you know, I didn't realize how arrogant Peter Pan is.. haha!














Sunday, March 20, 2011

All at once everything looks different.

"All those days watching from the windows
All those years outside looking in
All that time never even knowing
Just how blind I've been
Now I'm here, blinking in the starlight
Now I'm here, suddenly I see
Standing here, it's all so clear
I'm where I'm meant to be

And at last I see the light
And it's like the fog has lifted
And at last I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once everything looks different
Now that I see you

All those days chasing down a daydream
All those years living in a blur
All that time never truly seeing
Things the way they were
Now she's here shining in the starlight
Now she's here, suddenly I know
If she's here, it's crystal clear
I'm where I'm meant to go

And at last I see the light
And it's like the fog is lifted
And at last I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once, everything is different
Now that I see you, now that I see you"

That's a song from Tangled, I took Alex and Caelynn to see it today at Northpark Mall. Which they show movies that are about to be put out onto dvd for only $2.00 admission and $1.00 on Tuesdays! Isn't that awesome? I thought so. I loved this movie... I actually cried a bit, it had some sad parts in it. But it was very cute, I love Mandy Moore! She voiced Rapunzel. 

I feel a lot better about everything. I need to move on even though it's hard sometimes. But I need to put trust and faith into God and keep on the path. Our message in church today was "I need to find Him." Our pastor told us a story about how his son left for a trip and his 3 yr old daughter told her mom, "I've lost daddy, I need to find him." And how sometimes we loose sight of Him and that we need to find our way back. I'm trying to get my way back.

And I was thinking.. we're already a part of an amazing fairytale. As cheesy and lame as you might think I am or as this is going to sound, one day we'll all be taken away to a beautiful place by someone who loves us beyond words. Where there will be no sadness or fear, only love and warmth. And best of all we'll get to see the Lord's face and worship Him. We just have to keep looking up till it's time and spread His love / peace to others.

On another note, I know what I want to do with my room. I want a romantic princess-ish Victorian styled bedroom. I showed my parents what I want to do, they just kinda were like.. well I guess we do have other girls to go through it. HAHA, so I have all means go! Yeah! I've been looking for chandeliers online. >.<