Monday, January 28, 2013

。・: There is no one like our God :・゚

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose." - Romans 8:28

Buh, this video! It's amazing... I love it.

Today was a pretty good day.. though I felt really cabin fever-ish being stuck inside and what not. Poopy weather, can't wait till nice Spring weather! D: lol I worked out today and drew today! Went through my closet... and did laundry.

I started packing for my journey home :0 which is in four days! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I'm so excited to be able to go home.. and so thankful as well.

I'm getting all what I need to work on (cosplay) wise.. getting a game plan! Haha, and also planning on what I'm gonna cook for our party. And the other things I have in store >33

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"We sometimes experience things in life that make us feel as though we are being shattered; however, most of our earthquakes are small in comparison to the loss of life...... Perhaps you have experienced some horrendous earthquakes in your childhood, and life since that time has been one aftershock after another. Struggles with our weight are part of the aftershock effect. I have good news for all of us today: God cares where we've been. He was there when we were going through the quake, and He hated every minute we suffered." 

When I read that, it always brings me to tears. He was there with me and HATED every minute of it. God loves us so much. He loves me so much... I feel so much love.. and when I feel down I need to remember that, God loves me. What else matters? Nothing, it really doesn't. He has so much faith in me, I need to put all my faith in Him.

I want to spread His love.

We are blessed! Glorify Him everyday! If you ever need encouragement text me :)))

Love you guys, see you soon!!

Saturday, January 26, 2013

Day Four: XP

Sorry I didn't post yesterday.. I seriously passed out at like 8:00 p.m. ish and woke up at 6:20 a.m. I totally didn't get to read my devotional or any of my book.. I really didn't devote any time to God yesterday.. only a little bit :(

Today I didn't get to either.. Rather I didn't make time for it. I've just been in this un-motivated, depressed kind of state. You know when you hear that voice in your head, "You're never going to make it, just give up now." Well I'm being attacked right now by that voice.

I need to conquer it. Excuse me while I do today's devotional and blog about it.

Guys, we need to trust in Jesus, our faith glorifies God!

"He staggered not at the promise of God through unbelief; but was strong in faith, giving glory to God;"
- Romans 4:20

Do not grow weary in your faith, everyday live for His glory.

I need to start waking up and the first thing I do is devote time to God. I need to grow stronger everyday and not the opposite.

Today was overall an okay day. We drove over the Bay Bridge which is in Annapolis. It was really amazing! The waters were really pretty. We went to Whole Foods which has amazing fruit selection :) The snow started to melt today but I'm glad I got to see it fall!

6 more days till I'm in Oklahoma! I'm so very excited!

Stay strong guys! I love you all and miss you!

(Sorry for the short blog today)

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Day 2: Snow

We got snow last night! Like two inches of it! And it's suppose to snow like all day tomorrow (Friday)! I love watching the snow fall.. and getting cozy in the house, hee.

Alright! Before you turn up your noses to this video.. just STAHP. I love this song and this version. The country reminds me of my childhood and this song.... has really helped me rebuild my relationship with God. Just like the song says, "take everything to God in prayer." Just listen to it, it makes me want to worship God when I hear it! I love this song! Plus the pipe organ in the background reminds me of my church at home. <3

"Can we find a friend so faithful?
Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness.
Take it to the Lord in prayer."

My devotional today brought good news: Yes we do all fall short of the glory of God, but guess what? God sent his son to die on the cross for us! Jesus condemned our sins. God did it out of love for us! God offers us freedom through forgiveness and through substituting His son for us so all of our failures to live for the glory of God can be and are through faith forgiven.

"There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit." Romans 8:1

In my book, "Back on Track", I learned: God knows where we are. I shall give you a sample.

"The most exciting part about God's knowing where we are right here, right now, is that He never condemns us or berates us for our failures or for our feelings of failure. If we are overweight, depressed and without hope today, God has good news for us. God knows all about your situation and mine, and those situations are not dark to Him. If we're feeling condemned instead of comforted by the knowledge that God knows, then our belief system about God is faulty."

A common common COMMON trend I am seeing: take it to God in prayer.


8 more days till I come home to Oklahoma! Eeee! I'm so stoked. I've got some awesome things planned for our Valentine's (early) Day party/dinner! I can't wait to cook for all of you guys and just share in love. I really miss you all :3 I can't wait to see my family! I miss them like super crazy too! I really can't wait to go to my home church! I really want to try out this church up around the corner.. but I'm afraid to XP Need to muster up the courage. I'm a big girl!

I didn't work out today, the cleaners came.. it was crazy. I'll have to workout double time tomorrow! I need to stay away from the chips and salsa.. haha. I only have two more days left of the Daniel Fast! Next week is the true challenge.. to still loose weight while I have free reign over all the foods. Something that I need to take to God in prayer ;) But I'm super stoked to have coffee! It's been more than three weeks! /dies

I'm also gonna have a pig out on Sunday! Hopefully it doesn't make me sick lol!

Love you all! Update ya'll tomorrow!

P.S. I had a dream that I got shot in the leg.. and another dream I was a ballerina! That one was magical! :)))

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Day One :3

My devotional today was about how we fall short of the glory of God.

"And changed the glory of the uncorriuptible God into an image made like to corruptible man, and to birds, and fourfooted beasts, and creeping things." - Romans 1:23

So we basically worship the image in the mirror, ourselves. I won't lie I have definitely been guilty of that. I've been so focused on image, it has definitely been on the forefront of my mind. But I'm giving it to God so that I can glorify Him.

Yes I still want to loose weight... but if I don't allow God to help me or be apart of it.. then I'm not really doing it for His glory, I'm doing it for that "image."

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11

He already knows! He knows where we are going.. We just need to put faith in Him and glorify Him in all that we do! :3

I've started this workout video, it's a Jillian Michaels video, it's a 20 minute workout video you're suppose to see changes in thirty days. It's actually pretty intense and I only did the beginner.. it's like non-stop going all the time. Once you get done with one exercise you go right on to the next one. So you're thinking, wait Mattie, didn't you just say all that above? I know... Haha! I've re-started this book called "Back On Track" which is a weight loss book focused on bringing God into your plans.


So I'm so stoked about Nakakon! I got my Applejack wig in yesterday! That was super exciting!

ANNNNNND! 10 more days and I'll be in Oklahoma! I can't wait to see everyone! I miss you all!

Things I need to work on: Drinking more water, thinking more positively, being happier, putting more faith in God, taking everything in prayer, reading my Bible more often.

Cosplay I have to finish: ALL OF STARFIRE, tailor Yuna, belt/beltbuckle for Applejack.

Yeah... Yeah, I can do it XP haha.

Love you all!

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Is it Spring yet?

I am so ready for Spring: the warmth, the flowers, the beauty, sun sets later. And Easter! I love Easter! Not only for the pastel colored eggs or the pastel clothing, but Jesus died on the cross for us! :)

I love this song, "Jesus Paid It All" it always brings me to a place of worship. I've actually been listening to Christian music while on the Daniel Fast. There was a couple of days that I did start listening to secular music again.. and I felt so brought down and negative. Listening to Christian music anytime I turn on music really makes a difference. I feel more intune spiritually and getting closer to God. I just love praise and worship :)

I have a prayer request, my pastor just recently had the shingles disease, which he has recovered from. But now he has found out that he has cancer. His name is David Brooks and I really think that all of these things are attacks from the devil. He has such a vision and love for God. Please pray for him, I would appreciate it so much!

I have learned an important lesson while chasing after God. I am beautifully and wonderfully made. I have never loved myself so much as I do right now. I feel so blessed and thankful. At the end of the day I have a wonderful God who thinks I'm beautiful, He loves me for me, that's all I could ever ask for.

2013, I'm taken and I'm in love. I'm making a relationship with God. 

I know I've complained much in the past... but I think I'm a light in these peoples life. She's actually told me that she has cussed less because I'm here. I try to always be the positive uplifting one. :)

I'm on a church hunt! I'm going to try and find an Assemblies of God... because that's what my church is at home? Again, I just love the praise and worship.. haha! But we shall see! No one is on call this weekend so I'll be able to go to church! :) I might try a local church first, there are a couple close by.

The weekend we come back is Katsucon! EEEEEEEE! It looks like a yes, I just have to see what Jon's schedule is, but I'ma probably go! I'm so excited! I totally want to meet Amon/Steve Blum! I want to fix a couple of things on my Asami cosplay and possibly make a glove! :) I wish I could have someone go with me XP But ces la vie. lol

My devotional's Bible verse(s) is:

"Even every one that is called by my name: for I have created him for my glory, I have formed him; yea, I have made him." - Isaiah 43:7

"Whether therefore ye eat, or drink, or whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God." - 1 Corinthians 10:31

So guys today, whether you're at work or eating french fries or brushing your hair... how can you glorify Him?

I love you all so much! :)))))) I can't wait to see all of you! I'll be in Piedmont in 11 days! You're all in my heart and prayers!

Friday, January 11, 2013

。・: She was a P R I N C E S S worth waiting for :・゚

Isn't that girl really good? I read her comments and she taught herself to dance like that, amazing! "I wonder, do you know Him?" Ha ha, I love this song! :3

I just got done watching Tangled on the Disney channel, it's nap time right now ;) first of all, I cried when she was reunited with her mom and dad. That part never made me cry before... but since I've been away from mine it really just made me miss my mom and dad :(

Secondly, at the end, Flynn/Eugene says:

"Well you can imagine what happened next. The kingdom rejoiced for their lost princess had returned. The party had lasted an entire week and honestly I don't remember most of it. Dreams came true all over the place, that guy went on to become the most famous concert pianist in the world if you can believe it... and this guy.. well he eventually found true love. As for this guy, I assume he's happy... he's never told me otherwise. Thanks to Maximus, crime in the kingdom disappeared almost overnight.. as did most of the apples. Pascal,  never changed. At last Rapunzel was home, she finally had a real family. She was a princess worth waiting for. Beloved by all, she lead her kingdom with grace and wisdom her parents did before her...."

I wanna be just that, "a princess worth waiting for."

What I've started is being positive, everyday. Thinking positive, choosing the positive choice, finding the beauty in everything. I wanna be a role model because there are so many children in my life. During all of this I decided, 2013 is my year. It's my year to learn to love myself. To heal. To get back to God. I'll admit it... I haven't even been a lukewarm Christian.. I don't think I could really even call myself one. It's a struggle, it really can be. But I just need to give it to Him.

2013 is a focus on God. I need to quit focusing on the negatives and quit blaming myself and other things.. I need to stop thinking "forever alone" because if I can't love myself, no one else can. I made a promise, that this year I'm not going to even think about guys. No relationships, no nothing. Even if one day the guy of my dreams showed up and asked me out... nope. This year there is only one person I need to be in a relationship with and that's God. I need a spiritual healing. And maybe 2014 is my year.. I don't know, but someone does and I need to put more faith in Him.


This summer! I wanna do stuff on a whim.. I want to go to the beach and take pictures at sunset. I want to go cruising on Route 66 and visit diners and different stops. I want to go to new places. I want to see my family. I really honestly think, and people don't jump me, this is my last year of cosplaying. I keep saying it, but really it is. Tokyo in Tulsa will be... but just think... if we saved the money we spent on cosplay for a trip, WE COULD GO TO DISNEY or other places! We probably spend $1000 on cosplay.. you know? Between making the costume, getting passes, getting hotels, gas money, food money... maybe even more.

I really want to go to the beach.

I'm currently doing the Daniel Fast.. it has been easier.. but I do want some solid food lol. I can't wait till I get coffee back haha! A fast is suppose to be about relying more on God.. like ignoring your physical needs to meet your spiritual. I need to rely more on God when I'm feeling snacky. I need to lean on Him.

I've also decided that I'm not going to wear makeup during this fast either and not to use heat on my hair, so no curling irons, blow dryers, or straightners.. but I only use it on my bangs. Otherwise I'd look cra. I'm just doing all of this because.. and I must say, my skin is really clear!! lol It's probably because I'm also not eating a whole ton of bad stuff.

I love all you guys and miss you! I can't wait to see you in, like, three weeks!! :333