If it's October, why is it 90 degrees?

lol, but really? Because when I think of October I like of chilly weather... hopefully this month it will start to cool down and be chilly. BECAUSE I am ready for sweater, boot, jean, comfy, baggy, weather. XD

I just wanted to post a "beginning of the month" post. I don't have much to say haha.

I don't have much left for cosplay, though my Sophie boots broke. The zipper went all crazy and now it won't zip up. I am very sad... I'm gonna try to fix them.

I got a bunch of apples from the daycare so I'm going to experiment and make A TON of apple crisps and pies. I also got some cute dresses from Goodwill today :3 I'm going to try to turn one into a lolita dress. My pink and blond wig would look really cute with it.

What I need to get/and do to finish cosplay:
- Purple shoes/boots for Peebles
- Finish sewing my bag
- Make Asami's collar and cuffs
- Get tights for Asami and PB
- Order contacts? (don't really have too...)
- Wait for wigs to get in
- Order pink face paint
- Get PB tiara
- Fix or get new Sophie boots :(((((

WHOOP.

I can't wait for Korra or OUAT!! :))))

Love you all!!!

But you're a king and I'm a lionheart.

It don't mean a thing if I give you my heart.

That Gatsby song is stuck in my head... but I accidentally bought/downloaded the explicit version DDDD: It says "gd" in it.. boo. I'm gonna delete it totally, just bummed that I paid for it. XP OH WELL.

Sorry guys I've been super angsty, emo, withdrawn in pretty much every aspect of my life. I've been snappy and mean... forgive me.

I haven't really been right with God either. I've been "stuck" and really just lukewarm. I'm kind of lost and confused right now and I don't know why. I feel stuck in life right now and all aspects of my life is suffering. Pray for me please :)))

Tomorrow is my test... I'm procrastinating studying right now, ACTUALLY. I'm practicing my "English Language and Grammer" AMIRIGHT?!? lol, no just procrastinating. I'm good at that. I'm about to make my flash cards. I'm pretty confident on a lot of things... just not fractions and Chemistry. XP /dies



I downloaded the whole Tangled soundtrack, NO REGRETS. I love it so much. I'm so excited for Disney on Ice this weekend. It's really been a light at the end of this tunnel. I'm glad that Korra is this weekend as well.. but I just haven't been as pumped I guess. I don't know why /flails

I'm also glad that all of my shows are starting back up!!

Well I should attempt to refresh myself on Chemistry.. oh the periodic table.

I am thankful for:

-Jesus dying on the cross for my sins. As the song says, "I'll never know how much it cost, to see my sins upon the cross." And that God is waiting for me constantly with open arms, even when I mess up.

- For my family that I take for granted sometimes or let my frustrations upon. Who sometimes I'm really mean and ugly to. But they still love me for me.
-My friends that I can always talk to about anything. Who will love me and back me up no matter how stupid or weird I am.
-For life, everyday that I am able to wake up and take breath.
-For my room.. even though I hate it and it needs work and it's hot.... I still have a room over my head. I have a place to call home.
-For a job, that even though I complain a lot about (which I need to stop) I have one and many don't.

Disregard everything I said before. I don't even care.

Where did the summer go?

But really, I feel like I haven't really had one. Tokyo in Tulsa was fun but it was way too fast. And now public schools are back in session and college is starting.. and my test is but a few weeks away. But I'm excited for fall weather and fall fashion. I just love wearing comfy sweat pants and comfy boots and oversized comfy sweaters. Basically looking sloppy/cute/comfy but it being in style and not sweating in it! Haha!

Guys, I really hate math... it is going to be my downfall. It makes me procrastinate. I just need to keep my eye on the big picture, ya know? And make myself sit down for at least two hours everyday studying. Basic math, who knew? XP

Awesome church services, my home church and Life Church with Cheryl :) I really need to get on a better walk with God. I have been slacking and stupid. The good thing is that God never gives up on us and is always welcoming us back with open arms.

This weekend I got a lot of dress O.O I love dresses lol. I got two green ones, a formal blue one, two black ones, and an Alice in Wonderland dress from HotTopic :)

I have a quick confession. Cheryl I wanted to tell you tonight... I just felt really stupid and embarrassed and I guess it's hard for me to talk about things like this? Well mostly because I felt really stupid...  I kinda developed a one-sided crush... on a real person XPP hahaha. I don't really know much about him or really know who he is.. I know he's a Christian and he seems really nice. I've had like one conversation with him.... XDJKASJI:dkl;asldkfjlol

I guess when I think about "pursuing" it/him... I get disheartened. Because my self-confidence is shot and I'm just really awkward around guys in general :////// and I don't know if I really should pursue it. Or if I should just pray and wait till after my Nursing exam. I just... don't know. I suck when it comes to these things. I guess I just don't feel like I fit the "girl friend type/material." Or that I don't meet the "standard", I guess I just feel like one of the guys out of all of us girls. Or maybe my awkwardness drives guys away ... I know I know what you're saying.... you're probably telling me to shut up. But yeah... XP /flails

/shutsup

This Fall:
- Lavender fields
- Apple picking
- Disney on Ice
- Halloween Party <3
- Friend rave
- Poetry reading
- Vintage days