"Is that really you?"

Today was meh.

Just things at work.. dealing with people and the fact that I got bit today. Yeah, a little boy bit me on the arm and kicked me in the legs as I was carrying him away. I have bruises, it has made me not want kids what-so-ever. And you know what, his parents don't even care.

No it's like, we volunteer our weekends to have our Parent's Night Out's to earn money to buy equipment for our play yard and to get stuff for our kids, and we get griped out because we opened up a new bank account to put it in. I mean, last year we got $600 extra dollars because of some circumstance, so they were going to split it up between the to centers, $300 to the little daycare and $300 to ours. They put it all in the main bank account.. and we've never seen it. It's been a year now. THEN when the tornado came through last May and destroyed our playground (taking our fort, onning, balls, skates, ruining our fence) the insurance guy came out and took a look and what not... but you know what WE HAVEN'T SEEN ANYTHING FROM THAT. And I know she made a pretty penny off of it. They were able to claim a lot. But then they have the notion to complain that we don't put our hard earned money into their account?! We've earned almost $1000 and we're going to have to give it to her... it just makes me so mad. Our kids really don't have anything on that stupid play yard, they are so bored. It's so frustrating.

Planning events and field trips for the summer is frustrating and hard. I feel like just when I get settled into something new, I get another task dumped on me. And there just doesn't seem like there's enough hours in the freaking day. Thank goodness Spring Break is next week, I got to take some time off, which I'm super stoked about :3 next week I'm also going to go get my ear pierced. I wanted to do something hard core.. plus it's also for cosplay :3

I'm getting better. Some days it's just harder than others, but I've come a long way and I know that. Sometimes I'd just like to stay in my bed though.

They're making FFX - HD for the PS3 and it's suppose to come out this year, I'm so excited :D

I. won't. blackout. ｡･:*:･ﾟ★

I love that song. It's an awesome work out song.

-Brant: "You have something in the mail."
-Me: "No I don't, I checked it when I got home from work."
-Brant: "No, you have a letter in the mailbox."
-Me: "Uhh, I just said I checked it at seven and it's like 9:30p.m."
-Brant: "Just trust me."
-Me: *runs to mailbox*

THANKS BECKY! Haha, I thought I heard laughing out my window.. XD Love you girlie, it really boosted my day.

Just getting stressed out with school/grades, the load I'm getting at work, and the stress of being perfect for cosplay. I'm just glad we're half way over.. I think during Spring Break I'm going to work ahead on everything and get it finished way before it has to be turned in.

So at work, the girl who usually plans the fieldtrips for the summer is quitting. So that was kind of given to me, the duty of calling and setting up field trips. And it's like P wants the theme come up with, the t-shirt design, start planning decorations, it's stressing me out. I'm like, we have three more months... we can do it then. O.O Then she called me four times right after we left the daycare, like at 6:45.... WHHHATTT? I JUST SAW YOU. I feel bad for feeling like this, but I'm like... I just want to leave work at work.

I know you guys don't want to hear much about this, but buhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I hate my body. And we didn't have anything healthy laying around the house. So I ate apple sauce, nuts, boiled eggs. And lots of water. I worked out like a mad women. Then watched some tutorial of this Yuna (pics of her below) and it just shattered my self confidence. I'm sorry, I'll quit while I get ahead of myself, but it just makes me sad because I just feel so ugly.

One hundred and fifth post.

*sobsobsobsobsobsobsobsob*

-Warning, prepared to be slapped in the face with FFX/FFX-2/Yuna overload*

Cheryl, what are you doing over Spring Break. Because, I purpose, we play FFX. :3 Then onto FFX-2. That is if you're not busy.

Just ordered some accessories for Yuna! :D I know, you're thinking, "Why don't you wanna make them?" Well, I can only see me trying to make them and it not working out and me spending tons of money on it and wasting most of it. My cosplay crafting isn't that good... so I went ahead and did it. I'd love to make them, no doubt, but alas... yeah.

Plus, I think I have my work cut out for me with the obi itself. O.O It took this one girl like 6 months to complete the whole thing... *siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh*

ALRIGHT, so I have deemed Fridays my weigh in days! :D Last Friday March 2nd I weighed in at 182 lbs, yesterday I weighed in at 179 lbs. Whoo, three pounds! I wish it was more, but they say 3-4 lbs a week is healthy. I would really love to loose more weight before I start on Yuna... like hardcore start on Yuna. Because I don't want to make most of everything to what I am now and then possibly loose 10 more pounds.. then nothing would fit. So this means two things:

1. Start working out hardcore, now.
2. June and July I will have no life except for working on Yuna. Though I have found a full tutorial on "How to make a Yuna" cosplay, that will definitely help. And it looks amazing... (she's the girl who took 6 months to make)

Goals for Spring Break:
1. Find boots for Yuna
2. Make sleeves for Yuna
3. Paint hibiscus flower for obi 
4. Make/find black bra understrap thing.
5. Possibly make Nurse Joy?

I just had a huge cup of coffee and it has totally make me super excited and jittery! :D :D :D :D
I have been on such a Yuna/FF Gal craze.

On a more serious note, God is so amazing. He knows where we've been, where we are, and where we're going. I read this book called "Back on Track" it's a weightloss book but also it evolves putting Christ #1 in your life. Things that have really been getting me through is knowing He knows everything. Bad things to happen to us and people blame God but honestly He's hates every moment of our pain. At that point in the book I cried, I bawled. Anyway, I need to walk more in love and strengthen my relationship with God. I truly believe that we need to share the peace and love of God at A-Kon and it terrifies me. But we need to, it's our mission, we need to trust in Him. He will provide and protect us.

"I heard a story about a mountain climber who wanted to climb the highest mountain. He began his adventure after many years of preparation; but since he wanted the glory just for himself, he decided to climb the mountain alone. He start to climb, and it began to get very late; but instead of preparing his tent to camp, he kept climbing until it got very dark.

The night felt heavy in the heights of the mountain, and the man could not see anything. All was black- with zero visibility because the clouds covered the moon and the stars. As he was climbing, only a few feet away from the top of the mountain, he slipped and fell over the edge of the mountain, falling at a great speed. The climber could only see black spots as he went down and felt the terrible sensation of being sucked by gravity. He kept falling, and in those moments of great fear, his life flashed before him.

He was thinking now of how close death was getting, when all of a sudden he felt the rope that was tired to his waist pull him very hard. His body was hanging in the the air- only the rope was holding him- and in that moment of stillness, he had no other choice but to scream, "Help me, God!"

All of a sudden, a deep voice coming from the sky answered, "What do you want me to do?" The man cried out, "Save me, God!" God answered, "Do you really think I can save you?" "Of course I believe You can," the man shouted. God said, "Then cut the rope." There was a moment of silence. The man decided to hang on to the rope with all his strength.

The rescue team tells that the next day a climber was found dead and frozen- his body hanging from a rope. His hands were holding tight to a the rope- only 10 feet above the ground."

(AMAZING O.O)