My heart is breaking.

FROM THE ADORABLE CUTENESS OF IT ALL.

My emotions right now can be explained by a few words: hot men, cotton candy, holding hands, butterflies in stomach, girlie, silly.

I don't know the whole story but here it goes. Story version: the guy who acts as Peter Pan at Disney Land met the girl who acts as Wendy/Alice. Well they got married. IT IS SOOOOO CUTE! I was creeping/stalking them on the internet and found pics and stuff. Ohmaigawsh, I squealed and giggled and did all those girl things. It gives me hope though. Why? Because girls:

FAIRYTALES CAN COME TRUE. 

And although waiting sucks.... I should know. All I have to do is wait for the right guy. But in the mean time I need to make myself better for that person because I know he's doing the same for me.

Next weekend we're going to New Hampshire to see John's parents... well so Greyson (the baby) and see his grandparents. His Nana is like eighty four or so and she has heart problems. So they really wanted her be able to see him. I'm excited, I mean I'm not related and don't know anyone, haha, Michelle asked if I wanted to go or stay here. I mean I have nothing else better to do and who knows if I'll ever come back to the east coast in my lifetime, why not!

Tomorrow I really want to go look at some vintage shops. It's like my day off and what not. And I think that's what I'ma do. Right after I find out where the mailbox is. I need to mail off mai letters ;D

I was walking the dogs today on one of the trails and this teenage couple was walking together and OF COURSE the dogs start barking at them and I was like "Sorry, heh". They really kind of started at me and the girl was like "Oh my god." I felt really judged... I was in black stretch pants, big tee, and my hair was pulled back. It made me feel really self conscious. Why are people rude?

I miss you guys so much, like you don't even know it. I don't feel like I really have anyone here to talk to.. I mean, I don't. Sometimes when I'm talking to Michelle, I feel like she isn't really listening. It makes me sad. And being here with TWO DOCTORS makes me feel stupid. I wish I had someone here with me :/

 Peter and Wendy's wedding :')

So, come with me...

"where dreams are born and time is never planned. Just think of happy things and your heart will fly on wings, forever, in Never Neverland."

Every time I go on one of the hiking trails, with all the trees, I always think of Sleeping Beauty and the "once upon a dream" scene where she's singing with all of the animals. Plus I just love that outfit! :3

I've been totally into a daydreamy/fairytale like state. I blame polyvore, trees, and Disney. Seriously though. I really wish I had my dvds so I could watch some classic princess movies. XP

Or Peter Pan, I love Peter Pan.

I still need to check into the Midnight in Paris movie. I think I shall do so once I get finished typing this out... alright don't hate me, but. I won't be able to make it to Izumicon. Michelle has her best friend's wedding to go to that weekend. I was kind of upset at first... but you know what I think I need a break from cosplay and conventions. AND I don't even have a sewing machine up here. So it works out. Everything happens for a reason but honestly it's good that I'm not going. My priorities have been so out of wack, I was spending so much time and money on them and not giving anything to God. I need to re focus.

My goals while I'm away:
1. Walk on the straight and narrow/build a better relationship with God.
2. Make an A in Geography
3. Get in shape/healthy/better eating habits
4. Find myself

Tomorrow I'm going to go to a huge grocery store. Can't wait!! They said it's suppose to have all different kinds of things in it... it's hard to explain. BUT they have an Asian center where they'll make sushi right in front of you with fresh ingredients. YUMMMM!

Then I think this weekend we're going to Baltimore, I'm stoked.

Love you all! Goodnight! ;D

Did you forget that I was even alive?

"Did you forget? Did you forget? About me..."

It's a song by Demi Lovato! I'm not being super emo or anything. I had a wonderful, long, day today! This video though, you must watch. OHMAIGAWSH. Sums up kind of how I feel. Lemme break things down.

Episode 4

Everyone's reaction about Asami: *massive uproar*
Mine: O.O yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes
Everyone's reaction about Masami: *flips tables*
Mine: Teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeheeeee.

Episode 5

Everyone's Masami reaction: She's evil, she's playing him. She's an equalist. Blah blah blah *rage*
Mine: D'aw :')

Everyone's Makorra reaction: WAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
Mine: Wait, what? ......

Everyone's Makorra Kiss reaction: *flips tables and squeals*
Mine: Wait... WHAT?!

Episode 6-12
 My Makorra/Masami reactions:      >.>


Jaded... dun dun dun. I still feel very bitter and I am quick to defend Asami and bash Mako. I know I know time restricted them to do anything and the fact it was suppose to be a "mini series." But I just don't understand! People. And fans! WHYYYYYY?! *rages*

All I'm saying... is that Asami better get some justice. People were saying Asami was bad and evil and was playing them but all I see is THEM being the "evil" ones and "playing" her. Bam.

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So I'm taking Geography this semester, whoop whoop. The professor gave us a lot of busy work XP Oh joy. But from the looks, so far, it looks easy peasy. I mean the final is an essay! SCORE! I ace papers ;D and I'm shooting for an A.

Today was a much better day. My phone worked pretty much all day! Which was nice since I was here at the house all day. Tomorrow I'm going to try and venture out a bit. I need to get a notebook to write notes down and what not.

Love you all! Miss you more than you know.