I'm proud of who I am.

I miss this.
Truly I do. Reading back on some of these posts is bittersweet but I'd also want to go back and tell myself that things get a lot better. I've graduated from college, I have a great job, and I'm moved out. Another thing I complained a lot about was having long hair... well I had that and then chopped it off. So I'm back in that boat of wanting long hair haha!

I also used this to communicate with friends when I lived across the United States. So there's great memories there as well..... anyway. I don't know if I want to bring this thing back to life. Document my life again or just use to for a creative outlet? I'm not sure yet.

First Impressions

 My last post was a year and four days ago, man! Much has happened, I am now in school for nursing. :)
I just got done watching Becoming Jane which has left me miserably depressed, ha ha, but I guess I'll overcome that. I love the music from this movie and I'm such a sucker for period dramas and movies.

There isn't much more to say.

If it's October, why is it 90 degrees?

lol, but really? Because when I think of October I like of chilly weather... hopefully this month it will start to cool down and be chilly. BECAUSE I am ready for sweater, boot, jean, comfy, baggy, weather. XD

I just wanted to post a "beginning of the month" post. I don't have much to say haha.

I don't have much left for cosplay, though my Sophie boots broke. The zipper went all crazy and now it won't zip up. I am very sad... I'm gonna try to fix them.

I got a bunch of apples from the daycare so I'm going to experiment and make A TON of apple crisps and pies. I also got some cute dresses from Goodwill today :3 I'm going to try to turn one into a lolita dress. My pink and blond wig would look really cute with it.

What I need to get/and do to finish cosplay:
- Purple shoes/boots for Peebles
- Finish sewing my bag
- Make Asami's collar and cuffs
- Get tights for Asami and PB
- Order contacts? (don't really have too...)
- Wait for wigs to get in
- Order pink face paint
- Get PB tiara
- Fix or get new Sophie boots :(((((

WHOOP.

I can't wait for Korra or OUAT!! :))))

Love you all!!!

But you're a king and I'm a lionheart.

It don't mean a thing if I give you my heart.

That Gatsby song is stuck in my head... but I accidentally bought/downloaded the explicit version DDDD: It says "gd" in it.. boo. I'm gonna delete it totally, just bummed that I paid for it. XP OH WELL.

Sorry guys I've been super angsty, emo, withdrawn in pretty much every aspect of my life. I've been snappy and mean... forgive me.

I haven't really been right with God either. I've been "stuck" and really just lukewarm. I'm kind of lost and confused right now and I don't know why. I feel stuck in life right now and all aspects of my life is suffering. Pray for me please :)))

Tomorrow is my test... I'm procrastinating studying right now, ACTUALLY. I'm practicing my "English Language and Grammer" AMIRIGHT?!? lol, no just procrastinating. I'm good at that. I'm about to make my flash cards. I'm pretty confident on a lot of things... just not fractions and Chemistry. XP /dies



I downloaded the whole Tangled soundtrack, NO REGRETS. I love it so much. I'm so excited for Disney on Ice this weekend. It's really been a light at the end of this tunnel. I'm glad that Korra is this weekend as well.. but I just haven't been as pumped I guess. I don't know why /flails

I'm also glad that all of my shows are starting back up!!

Well I should attempt to refresh myself on Chemistry.. oh the periodic table.

I am thankful for:

-Jesus dying on the cross for my sins. As the song says, "I'll never know how much it cost, to see my sins upon the cross." And that God is waiting for me constantly with open arms, even when I mess up.

- For my family that I take for granted sometimes or let my frustrations upon. Who sometimes I'm really mean and ugly to. But they still love me for me.
-My friends that I can always talk to about anything. Who will love me and back me up no matter how stupid or weird I am.
-For life, everyday that I am able to wake up and take breath.
-For my room.. even though I hate it and it needs work and it's hot.... I still have a room over my head. I have a place to call home.
-For a job, that even though I complain a lot about (which I need to stop) I have one and many don't.

Disregard everything I said before. I don't even care.